Reverb 10: Wonder.

by Dian Reid-Jancic· Follow Dian on

A great deal of my time this year has been spent in exploration. In exploration lies wonder.

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year?

~ Jeffrey Davis

When I was five I wondered about everything. Sometimes I even asked. By age ten I still wondered, but had learned the value of keeping questions to myself: Adults will know how dumb I am if I ask questions all the time.

At age 25 I assumed I had much of life figured out and nearly ceased to wonder, let alone ask questions; I didn’t feel the need. I’ll just figure it out as I go; who needs wonder? Not me.

When I was 30 my father died and everything changed. Questions began to ask themselves, without my permission. I wondered what was next. I wondered where my father went. I wondered when my time would come. I wondered how I would make peace. I wondered in the comfort of my own head, and on the pages of my journals as The Artist’s Way gently suggested I do. Is it okay to have all these questions? Am I stupid for not knowing what I want for myself at this stage in my life? Is it even possible for me to figure anything out??

This year I turned 35. Some time between 30 and 35 wonder became not just a part of my life, but a main artery in my way of life. It was no longer an option to assume I knew anything at all. Even the things I know, I assume I can learn more. Even the simple things. What does that flower smell like? What’s her story? How can I learn from it? What would it be like if I lived my life on the outside the way I do on the inside?

2010 has seen a continuous shift from who I was into who I am: an evolution of wonder.

A note to 2011:

This post is written as Day 4 of Reverb 10, inspired and created by Gwen Bell (Best of ’09) and her rockingly awesome cohorts. Are you reverbing too? I’d love for you to share yourself in the comments below.

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  • That post-it just makes me smile. Actually, it’s more like a grin. A very wide grin.

    • It’s the theme in the P90X workouts I’m doing now. Every day I “Bring It” … “it” being my best, whatever it may be on that day. I love that it’s not about matching who I was yesterday, but simply bringing who I am today. What a great way to live life, I think …

  • got so excited, i tweeted this without leaving my comment. love this sentence: “Questions began to ask themselves, without my permission.” also just adore your note to 2011. “bring it.” exactly.

  • One thing I’ve really enjoyed about reverb10 is coming across posts that state very elegantly something that I’ve struggled to define with words. “Questions began to ask themselves, without my permission.” is one such line and it brilliantly sums up my experience over the past few years. Thank you for that!

    • You’re welcome, Brad! It’s so amazing the different takes on each prompt we see in the posts of others. I love when I find that connection of defining something I’ve been struggling with to define, as well. Often I feel the energy leap from the page and grab me by the shoulders and shake me … So glad you stopped by =)

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