Liberation 2010. [Updated]

by Dian Reid-Jancic· Follow Dian on

A few weeks ago I went to a meeting at The Center in Long Beach for something called Liberation 2010: Answering The Call to Greatness. I left that meeting inspired. I left that meeting loved. And I left that meeting with a desire to answer my own call to greatness. And now, I’m answering that call.

Liberation 2010 is about healing. It’s not about judgment, but about opening up dialogue and discussion, and closing off hate, judgment and fear. It’s about recognizing the humanness in all of us and sharing the love that we have all been created in.

I want to share with you a commitment I’ve made, why I made this commitment, and what this commitment means to me.

A Commitment to my Liberation:

I, Dian Reid, hereby dedicate myself to the complete healing and releasing of homophobia (trans, bi, other-phobia), first and foremost, within myself, the LGBTQ [Lesbian Gay Bi-sexual Transgendered Queer/Questioning] community and the world.  I am willing to be liberated from all limiting, negative and false beliefs within my consciousness that heretofore have allowed me to play small and to be anything less than fabulous.   I allow Self-acceptance and appreciation to flood my very being – cleansing me of all shame, guilt, fear, judgments and projections.

I am grateful to be exactly as I am. I recognize that this freedom creates more energy and clarity to boldly live my purpose with passion and joy, in service to the revelation of greater good for all.  And, I know that forgiveness and compassion keep me gracefully on my path at all times.   I am committed to living a liberated, happy life and I inspire others to do the same.

I allow Infinite Love to guide me in all I say and do and commit to never hiding the brilliant light of Spirit that I am.

Signed,

Dian Reid

What made me want to make the commitment to myself:

I see and hear people condemn others for being gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgendered and it bothers me. And when it bothers me, I look inside myself for the source of pain. When I think of homophobia, I think, I’m gay…surely, I can’t be homophobic. But it turns out, I am and have been.

When I go out to bars and restaurants in my own town of Long Beach, I am calm, comfortable, and coolly collected. Long Beach is known for being an accepting community towards the “alternative lifestyle.” I have no problems walking hand in hand with my girlfriend, I have no qualms about being openly affectionate with a kiss on the cheek or a rub on the back, and I certainly don’t alter either of those things just because I’m not in a known gay-friendly establishment. But I became someone else at a wedding in Iowa.

At a wedding in Iowa, I sat and watched a straight couple get married in a Catholic church. I felt uncomfortable walking into the church. I felt different. I felt like all eyes were on my girlfriend and I. I felt like the wedding guests were judging me for walking into their church with my girlfriend like I was their equal. I wondered if people would pray for me because I didn’t see God the same way I assumed they saw God. I could almost feel the judgment crawling on my skin, and I hadn’t spoken to a sole person.

I stayed a little bit further away than I might have at home. I didn’t hold her hand. I wasn’t my affectionate self. I didn’t call her baby, even when no one else could hear. I wasn’t myself at all. I had changed in the blink of an eye, but for whom?

Come to think of it, I didn’t encounter a single person at the wedding who wasn’t genuinely happy to meet me or my girlfriend (they all seemed to be focused on the bride!) I didn’t encounter a single person at the reception who wasn’t interested in sharing a conversation with me or my girlfriend. In fact, the entire night, not one person made mention of the obvious fact that my girlfriend and I were, in fact, a couple, nor were there snide looks, nor any kind of avoidance when they saw either of us come their way. Nor did anyone appear to have that guilty look of gossip on her face when we showed up in a circle. Recalling the night, it was one of the funnest nights of that trip, and I’m so grateful for the opportunity to have been present for such a beautiful event. So then, what about this crawling judgment?

It wasn’t until I was sitting in that room at The Center that I realized that the judgment crawling all over my skin was my own judgment.

In our heads we (teh gays!) live a life that never seems to materialize. That life = fear. We fear that someone doesn’t like us. We fear that someone hates us. We fear that someone judges us. We fear that someone will be mean to us. We fear that someone will tell us we’re wrong and they’re right and we’re going to Hell because of it. Whether we speak it out loud or not, we fear, we fear, we fear! In the comfort of our own homes, we tuck those fears into the back of our heads and forget about them until we’re uncomfortable. Until we travel to a farm-town in Iowa for a wedding in a Catholic church.

I’m tired of fears living silently in the back of my head. I’m tired of fears coming out to play only when it suits discomfort. I’m tired of being anyone other than myself, regardless of my geography. And that is why I made this commitment.

What the commitment means to me:

It means that I’ll read this signed document every day. It means that I’ll be aware of homophobia within myself. It means that I’ll address such homophobia and kindly, gently, tell it that this phobia has no place in my life and is no longer welcome. It means that I’ll thank said phobias for their service and then calmly escort them to the door. It means that when I see homophobia outside myself, I’ll address the phobia clearly and kindly, gently, ask it to leave. I’ll be inquisitive and curious. I’ll be loving and compassionate. I’ll be firm and committed. I’ll be me.

This commitment means that I’ll meditate on love and healing every morning. It means that I encourage self-acceptance and the cleansing of all shame, guilt, fear, judgments and projections. It means that I am committed to my own liberation, as well as the liberation of others. It means that I allow love and compassion and forgiveness to flow through me. It means that I will not stand by and watch discrimination happen, but speak out with fierce courage and a kind heart when it does.

It means that I allow Infinite Love to guide me in all I say and do and commit to never hiding the brilliant light of Spirit that I am. It means that I offer myself in service.

What now?

Now, I offer free coaching for one TWO months to any new client in the LGBTQ community through Sunday, April 11, 2010. No obligation. Just free coaching. The same coaching you’d get if you paid for it. Four 45-minute sessions. The only thing that I ask is that you begin to explore liberation. Just begin. Just explore. Just be your authentic you.™ What have you got to lose?

[Update] For the full updated program, click here.

To contact me for a sample session (just to see if we’re cut out for each other), click the “Contact” tab at the top of the page. If you’re reading this via RSS feed, click here. For more information on Liberation 2010 and how you can get involved, go to www.liberation2010.com.
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